Entropic Joules

Yesterday morning, I thought my life was falling apart. Yes, a bit dramatic but in between heartbreak house mania, my quest of the unknown in the black hole of job searching and me planning a euro trip on a broke as a joke graduate student budget, things were looking a bit dismal. Now I sit, still in my PJs over 1.5 hours after I was planning on being at work today and finalizing my plans for my trek to the west coast. Jamming to sweet tunes of Jose Gonzalez, booking tickets and e-mailing my hopefully future employer. Looks like I am flying to California, the beautiful heartbeat city of San Diego, to sail a weekend regatta with the owner of the company of the job I applied to. Getting a tour of the business on Monday, I hope this goes well. Regardless, I’m diving in head first. I better have good energy this weekend because as of now, this seems a bit unreal. This is the type of boat I will be sailing. Hard core, I think so.

These questions are quite scary but I attempt to embrace it. For the last 23 years of my life there has always been a next step. First walking, talking, potty training. Not too long after the dating, driving, sailing thing. College came and went so my masters, naturally. Hard core, petal to the medal, why not do it in one year and crank it out? Well the semesters all rolled together, I was a blur and I recently didn’t remember what season it was, let alone what month. My brain was fried and my only sanity lied with friends, wine, good beer, food and my daily bike to campus & work. My thesis was approved, I’m done with classes and now? I’m not sure. My heart is all over the place and I’m daily determined to get excited about something. Maybe I want to move to Argentina, maybe California, campus recreation, marketing? I am clueless. I am an adventurer and ready to go, but there is no place yet. Broke as a joke and dreaming of traveling again. I fancy lots of things and could see myself in a lot of different places or industries. Slightly jaded from business school but know my heart is somewhat grounded because of how picky I have been with the job search. Corporate America is not attractive to me but I am unemployed… Perfect job, please hire me.